mood: lazy
listening to: my fav man james blunt.

okayfinally one one one person read this blog!!! hurray. thanks sze for always the wise one. i guess the reason why wives keep quiet bcos true they want to protect the relatoinship but inless the husband is repentantand realises his mistake then can they get back. i guess keeping quiet can mean many things. you can't forever keep mum abt it. everytime there's a so called war, tell me who are speaking. why are we apeaking.partly bcos we're vocal. and ahy do we need to do so. bcos we feel the need to say smth. but there are some ppl who simply feign ignorance and notsay anything. i guess ppl shld take the "war" as an oppoturnity to voice their grievances and in the end bring a CLOSURE to it.

i emphasize so much on closure bcos none of the issues have been entirely resolved. the fear part, i didnt mean it to be afraid but rather cautious. cos no one wants to get hurt. right? so there are many issues within me that i want to resolve with you guys but i cant bring myself to it cos if i say it'll turn everyone on myselfagain. i admit that ppl have been hurt and by me. i want to say sorry but i can't talk abt it. why bcos i cant. i simply can't.

i'll say this blattenly to the world who reads this blog. i apologise to louisa for the fun fair incident. i forgot what exactly happened but the reason why i really got so worked out was the carry on of the past. rmb my birthday last year. i no longer care abt it. but the fact that louisa spoke up abt it when she somewhat wasn't involved at all. it was more of liz i actually demanded an explanation. sorry it was mean to be so public but the it really hurt me. and in my opinion louisa shdnt have said anyting. and we never said anything abt it anymore. why?

then we clashed for the fun fair, dude serously i got really pissed off again bcos it was her again. the funfair was high on tension. very very tense. why? bcos i was refrainig myself from blowing up at ppl whoweren't interested at all. tho you might not be so enthu abt the even but st least a certain amt of effort is not un unreasonable expectatoin from a group project. you very well know who you are. you didnt even help in the actual day itself instead you took yr friends on a trip round the fair. nicely done. being the grp leader i know i shldnt have blew my top but it was really eating me up. so here's to louisa i'm very sorry. and the team for displaying poor leadership. sorry.

now shall we just say what we really want to say to each other. RTOL will never be the same as we discover more differences. we're a grp of ppl who wants fun. fun friends but within the fun friends there are intimacy shared btwn jsut the two fo you. but some may never find the same solace with the others bcos of the different frequencies. sch is the most common haunt and we shld make the best of it.

and to my friends who have endured so much of my madness sorry i may not have been the friend that you've expected and on many occassions i hurt you guys. sorry. and thank you. i'll bring these memories to oz and write a book abt it. hahaha.. if i ever make it.

we had fun didnt we friends
we indeed shared some experiences that brought us either to discovery or closer.
we're nice ppl but show it differently
we enjoy good life anf laughs tho we may never see things fromt he same perspective that's what we like abt each othet.
the enlightement we bring abt for each other.
the reminders we give our friends.
and that's why we're a grp.
thru this grp we've coe to know individuals better and we hook arms together and trot off the spend more time to know more of each other.
you visit the grp occassionally now, but where the true friend lies is now next to you.
so we scatter of in the differentroutes of life
and one day we come back and face each other and laugh abt the past.
and say those were the days wasnt it friend.
we say we enjoyed oursleves and we no longer tquestion why we didnt make it together bcos we know ahy.
deep in our hearts we'll treasure such moments.
we grew together in maturity and pranks.
there you have it.
a grp of friends.