mood:eLATED!
listening to:

exams are over!!!!! yippeee. eh why arent we gg out for our usual ritual outing? oh wells... gd luck for ur remaining exams peeps! eh louie and mich how was e zouk party..

oh btw are we still getting a suite for prom? im checking out the webby now, its quite posh u know, orchard hotel,..


1)Suite Deal

Executive Suite - S$380 *

The above rates inclusive of :-

- Breakfast daily in the lounge
- Happy hour with free flow of soft drinks, beer and wine in the club lounge
- Laundry - $18 credit per day
- Personalized check in/check out

okay, tts a bit excessive.


2)Executive Club -
S$240 +++ (Single)/ S$260+++(Double/Twin)*


The above rates inclusive of :-

- Breakfast daily in the lounge
- Happy hour with free flow of soft drinks, beer and wine in the club lounge
- Free broadband internet access in the room
- Complimentary laundry/pressing of 2 pieces of clothing per day (non-accumulative)
- Complimentary local calls
- Personalized check in and check out
- Free access usage of equipment in the fitness centre

* subject to service charge and prevailing government taxes including GST.


lol, check out the free flow of drinks..

i have come to the conclusion tt orchard hotel is not some slipshod rickety hotel..

mood:
listening to:

but throughout my sec 1 to 4 years i've had a great time (and prob. will continue to have) with the rtol clique.. so thank you everyone!

mood: lazy
listening to: my fav man james blunt.

okayfinally one one one person read this blog!!! hurray. thanks sze for always the wise one. i guess the reason why wives keep quiet bcos true they want to protect the relatoinship but inless the husband is repentantand realises his mistake then can they get back. i guess keeping quiet can mean many things. you can't forever keep mum abt it. everytime there's a so called war, tell me who are speaking. why are we apeaking.partly bcos we're vocal. and ahy do we need to do so. bcos we feel the need to say smth. but there are some ppl who simply feign ignorance and notsay anything. i guess ppl shld take the "war" as an oppoturnity to voice their grievances and in the end bring a CLOSURE to it.

i emphasize so much on closure bcos none of the issues have been entirely resolved. the fear part, i didnt mean it to be afraid but rather cautious. cos no one wants to get hurt. right? so there are many issues within me that i want to resolve with you guys but i cant bring myself to it cos if i say it'll turn everyone on myselfagain. i admit that ppl have been hurt and by me. i want to say sorry but i can't talk abt it. why bcos i cant. i simply can't.

i'll say this blattenly to the world who reads this blog. i apologise to louisa for the fun fair incident. i forgot what exactly happened but the reason why i really got so worked out was the carry on of the past. rmb my birthday last year. i no longer care abt it. but the fact that louisa spoke up abt it when she somewhat wasn't involved at all. it was more of liz i actually demanded an explanation. sorry it was mean to be so public but the it really hurt me. and in my opinion louisa shdnt have said anyting. and we never said anything abt it anymore. why?

then we clashed for the fun fair, dude serously i got really pissed off again bcos it was her again. the funfair was high on tension. very very tense. why? bcos i was refrainig myself from blowing up at ppl whoweren't interested at all. tho you might not be so enthu abt the even but st least a certain amt of effort is not un unreasonable expectatoin from a group project. you very well know who you are. you didnt even help in the actual day itself instead you took yr friends on a trip round the fair. nicely done. being the grp leader i know i shldnt have blew my top but it was really eating me up. so here's to louisa i'm very sorry. and the team for displaying poor leadership. sorry.

now shall we just say what we really want to say to each other. RTOL will never be the same as we discover more differences. we're a grp of ppl who wants fun. fun friends but within the fun friends there are intimacy shared btwn jsut the two fo you. but some may never find the same solace with the others bcos of the different frequencies. sch is the most common haunt and we shld make the best of it.

and to my friends who have endured so much of my madness sorry i may not have been the friend that you've expected and on many occassions i hurt you guys. sorry. and thank you. i'll bring these memories to oz and write a book abt it. hahaha.. if i ever make it.

we had fun didnt we friends
we indeed shared some experiences that brought us either to discovery or closer.
we're nice ppl but show it differently
we enjoy good life anf laughs tho we may never see things fromt he same perspective that's what we like abt each othet.
the enlightement we bring abt for each other.
the reminders we give our friends.
and that's why we're a grp.
thru this grp we've coe to know individuals better and we hook arms together and trot off the spend more time to know more of each other.
you visit the grp occassionally now, but where the true friend lies is now next to you.
so we scatter of in the differentroutes of life
and one day we come back and face each other and laugh abt the past.
and say those were the days wasnt it friend.
we say we enjoyed oursleves and we no longer tquestion why we didnt make it together bcos we know ahy.
deep in our hearts we'll treasure such moments.
we grew together in maturity and pranks.
there you have it.
a grp of friends.

mood: :/
listening to: some sad song

okay i happened to read the previous 2 posts and decided to post.

rtol, a clique?

i think that's outside perception.

breaking up?

no, growing apart perhaps but you must take into consideration that some of us were always closer to others even before rtol's existence. another thing to note is that we are really a big group so you can't expect everyone to play happy families, and expect everyone to be close to one another on an equal level.

like love, friendship can't be forced or coerced. it comes naturally or maybe it's just the compatibility. i know that sometimes initiative,hard work and perserverance can make a friendship work but at the first place are both parties willingly, do you share the same ideals or perception of true friendship? is friendship controlled by physical circumstances. should time, space constraintsdrive a gap between friendships?

this is permisstic.but i dont't think rtol will be able to return to it's original form. wounds heal but scars don't disappear. this is not only about the forgivingfactor already, it's whether we still can reach a mutual understanding; to give without any shred of resentment and most importantly, the common want to repair this friendship.

issues to be settle?

i agree with sharon that we have to be more open and that's how friendships work.

but the part about being afraid, i differ in opinion.

it's afraid but not about quarreling but hurting yourself, your friend and your friendship. why do wives keep quiet sometimes when they realise their husbands are fooling around? not because they are frightened, it's because they treasure their marriage and want to protect it even if it means sacrificing their pride and hurting themselves more.

if anyone would want to share their troubles with anybody else, maybe you should just give that person or that group a hint. if they don't get it at times like me being blur, tell them or her straight in the face.

sometimes it's not that they don't care for you, instead they don't know whether they should bring up the topic at hand with the fear that they might unwittingly hurt you, especially if they got the impresson that you didn't want to talk about it.

i wrote this on current currants sometime ago. it seems to apply here too...

thinking of....

friendship..

what's friendship?

is it the number of years you spent together? the multitude of things you have done together? or even the number of squabbles you had?can friendship be measured?is there truly such a thing as best friend, good friend, friend, 'hello-goodbye' friend?

in my case, i can't really describe friendship to you, because i'm learning myself, falling down at times and steadying myself at others. i find myself sharing a different relationship with every single one of my friends. we talk about entirely unrelated things. some about the latest gossip, movies,books. the others about the current affairs, religion, thoughts. superficial or not, they are all important to me. i can't deny the fact that some friendships are indeed more cherished and precious to me, the ones that not only have good memories but bittersweet ones as well.

the astonishing thing i realised is, if you have true friends; time, distance, difference in opinion or thought will cease to matter. a true friend is not just a physical being to accompany you, to please your whims, to keep you from loneliness. if you have a true friend, you would not worry about not keeping in contact for a long time or forgetting each other, because deep down inside you both know that you are always there for each other. and the day you finally meet, despite the changes in your appearance and character, your friendship will still continue as before; as if there never was a parting.

thank you all my friends for teaching about the truth of friendship...

mood: apprehenisve
listening to:m5 again

ermm.. well this blog wasnt dead until cassie liz and i wrote smth here.

well i'm gg to say smth that might gg to offend ppl. we ARENT a clique for very simple reasons. we have cliques within cliques.. get it? here's a pair.. mich and jia. a trio sze alicia and cassie. and another and another.. there you go..

i say we're a group of ppl that we assume we cld fall back on when we're out of friends. i admit!!! i dont think that you guys are the BESt of friends but good friends. there are so many flaws we find in each other. i have many of them but we dont have the ability to actually over look them. i say i'm hot-tempered and nasty and demanding. well i can be. but i'm funny right. yeah? so there. i bet you're in a dilema. sharon's temper is a very big problem to deal with in my friendship with her and i think i shldnt be so nice just in case she hurts me in a quarrel. no wait (btw i'm just using myself as a bloody example) we don't say like perhaps she's not so baad. i can say a thousand and one things and do a thousand and one things which can make you ppl (i mean in general) laugh or whichever. but if i blow my top over anything every shushes.. oh dear.. and i get the feeling i've lost all my friends. i don't know that's how i feel.

i don'tknow but there are definite diplomats here. and some better still, you dont say anything bcos you think its wise to just shut up but actually you go ard thinking abt the issue and share it with the closest friend in the clique.. well call that gossip or some shit but honestly we've gotta be more open. its come to a point where we don't want to say anything and avoid the issue with all your life incase the issue is further blown up. like krakatoa. but have you ever wondered, you avoid and don't settle it bring a final closure to the issue the entire is STAGNANT!!!! when things get stagnant they get smelly.. uh-huh agree? and its not only one puddle of water and there are many.. i dont know the stuff that goes between you guys but i think its like that.

you know i'm getting bored of just seeing louie. mich and sam every reccess.. where are you guys.. you ppl need food too!!!!!!! do you understand!!!!!! food!!!! you dont have to be drastic man.. anyway, there are many issues to be settled in this grp vcos no one ever dares addresses it again fearing the worst. but that's how couples make it thru marriage. they confront quarrel tear each other up but thru all these you learn the different facades (well if its appropiate) of ppl and learn to love each other for who they are really. i can't say for myself whether i can do what i've mentioned above but i do know that's the problem that will never be solved unless we do smth abt it. can't be an individual thing. it has to comefrom everyone. no matter what the tension or anything if we really want to make it as a grp of friends we really can rely on then work at it. dont just sit there!!

tell you smth, from the incident of my mum's passing none of you have actually ever asked me how i am doing whether i'm ok. all of you decided not the touch the subject bcos its not like you guys have the time to listen to me cry my guts out. but the most pleasant surprise was that DORCAS asked how was i once when we were alone for lunch. i think that kind of friend really counts but my friends chose to evade. i don't know how to tell you guys better but this is just like telling you how i feel. very factually and objectively. perhaps you guys care in different ways i appreciate that.. i wrote an e-mail abt my mum on her birthday and like not many i mean not many ppl actually said anything abt it. ask me if i'm disappointed in the way the situation was handled-- yes. i don't blame you guys but my care and support came from ppl i wasnt so close to. right. before i start another war. i'm off..

mood:bad
listening to:nothing

yea, tts funny. incoherent snorts of a warthog

mood: mad
listening to: maroon 5

hey i've just read a book titled mad elaine and its down right hilrious!!!! i mean if you really want the funnies go check this book out.. i was bummin in the library alone and i didnt dare to laugh my big hulaboo cos i'll be mortified. ben xiao jie is learning to be refine now. anw book recommendation!!! anw i feel like starting this club called the 'mad warthog' the gossip column wld be titleed 'incoherent snorts from a mad warthog" heh..

mood:sian
listening to:-

helloooo. thanks for the earrings and the wooden thingy LIZ! =)

mood: nthing
listening to:nthign
thanks jia yes i wld like a new layout as you can see i ahve screwed big ime with it hehe